They say, good times pass so do the bad times. It eventually would get a lot easier. We as humans are so caught up with the extremes; happiness and grief that we forget the fact that it’s all just momentary.
We are so fascinated by the smiles all around that we forget to see the deeper emotions in life. What actually is interesting is a person lost in thought, or when a person is angry, or the way one looks at their loved one when the latter is absolutely doing nothing, when one half smiles with the deep arched dimple, that inner fight with oneself when trying not to let that tear drop fall, when they are alone, when smoking a cigarette in rain. Beautiful emotions, precisely deeper ones.
Gestures, really really small ones, holding the door for someone you do not know, smiling at them, giving compliments to random people are so to be appreciated. But have we not forgotten to distinguish the genuine ones with the ones people show just to get away with life. Today, the gestures even when done with the purest heart are mistaken. They are categorised under “being over sweet” and “flirty”. Have we forgotten the basics of life? Has being positive become so very rare in our generation?
Take me back to the 90’s dad, take me back, where almost every time someone passes on a compliment, we would end up with red cheeks blushing instead of pondering over what the person actually means! Take me back to the lighter days.
At one point, she has given up on relationships. Maybe not forever, but for a while. She’s been trying to find love for so long, but what she actually found was she wasn’t ready for love and she doesn’t know when she will be ready again. Little did she know that a person is never ready or not ready for love.
It’s not that she’s scared of commitment, she’s just scared of wasting more time being loyal to someone who isn’t worth it. It’s not that she’s afraid of trust, she’s just afraid of investing herself in someone who can’t be honest with her. It’s not that she’s frightened of attachment, she’s just frightened of getting so close to someone that she won’t be able to leave if she needs to. While she’s been hurt by a lot of people, she knows it’s also her fault for not being able to be alone, it’s her fault for catching feelings so easily, and it’s her fault for not properly giving herself time to process everything she’s been thru. She just figured it’s time to give her heart a break. She would rather be single and lonely than to be miserable with someone who’s supposed to make her happy. She would rather wait until something real comes along than to get back with someone who always makes her feel like something’s wrong with her.
And then he happened! With all the love and care he showered on her, she thought he was the one. But the past as always,haunted her, made her question her choices once again. Was he really the one?
In life,sometimes you meet someone. It is so clear that the two of you, belong together, on most of the levels. As mates, as family, as friends, or as something entirely different. You meet these people throughout your life, out of nowhere, under very strange circumstances. They make you feel alive.
I dont know if that makes me believe in coincidence or fate or destiny or sheer luck, but it definitely makes me believe in something. It happened to me, a year ago! I dont know how it is you are so darn familiar to me. As I get to know you better, it is as if I am remembering who you are! Every meet, every smile and every conversation of ours brings me more near to the thought of having you known before, loved you before- in another time, in some other realm of existence!
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